Secret Hipster Society

Teenaged vegetarian aspiring writer, poet, and philanthropist. I love indie music and hipster style (but I'd never admit it). I'm not yet sure what this blog is going to be.

there’s only us, there’s only this

forget regret, or life is yours to miss

no other road, no other way,

no day but today. 

lmao

lmao

I hate you when you drink.

when you get sloppy and stupid and you don’t make any sense. you’re the worst drunk I’ve ever met, there is not an ounce of your body that is kind or sensitive when there’s a few bottles of oak aged chardonnay running through your veins - very dry. 

you don’t abuse me, and most of the time you’re okay, so this is not a cry for help. this is mostly just a way to make your stupid fucking voice that’s constantly ringing in my ears shut up. I don’t know how you can possibly see me in such a negative light. everything is wrong to you.

but can’t you see that you made me this way? worrying and sweating and trembling. scared to say anything to you because that’s just me being dramatic again and overreacting. you’ve messed me up you know. my head isn’t right sometimes. and I think about everything in the wrong way. 

in all honesty I don’t want dad’s money - because I know exactly where it’s going to go to. our backyard really needs a remodel and that big fat check from the court will pave perfect stones to cover up the splotchy grass. it’s really benefiting me and my life - going towards my future. a future free of yellow lawns. thank heavens.

at least own up to it - then maybe I could at least look at you with some respect. 

but don’t try and place the burden on me saying that you only have my best interest in mind. that’s a lie and you know it. you haven’t thought about me once in this decision, and you’re definitely not being a better parent because of it. don’t be such a god damned liar, and stop slurring your speech. stop walking away from me like a toddler. 

I really truly hate you when you drink. 

A song by Gotye that is not “somebody that I used to know” (I still love that song by the way)

BUT this is song is definitely worth a listen, I really like it a lot. Really cute lyrics.

In the mornings,
I was anxious
Was better just to stay in bed
Didn’t wanna fail myself again

Running through all the options
And the endings
Were rolling out in front of me
But I couldn’t choose a thread to begin

And I could not, love
Cos I could not love myself
Never good enough no
That was all I’d tell myself
And I was not well
But I could not help myself
I was giving up on living
You were leaving

Traveling south again
And you said you were not unprepared
And all the dead ends
Disappointments
Fading from your memory
Ready for that lonely life to end

And you gave me love
When I could not love myself
And you made me turn
From the way I saw myself
And your patient love
And you helped me help myself
And you save me